courtneykrunk

You can call me...

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 15:31:02 GMT

Colorful, moody, takes too many pictures of herself, Dreamer.

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Thu, 21 Jun 2007 12:21:06 GMT

Long time, no Update!!

Ive been sick the past few days. Im finally starting to feel better and then it has to RAIN! How Fucking sucky!! Well I have Mateo too keep me busy right? I feel like im never going to get him house trained but hes only 3 months and ive read time and time again it could take until they are 6 months to fully potty train them. He's being a wimp today cause its raining. I love him so much tho.

Ive been promoting Madina Lake a lot lately. Ive actually never promoted a band like this before. Its fun. Plus, i love introducing people to smaller bands that are fucking amazing. I love ML. Simple as that. RPI REPRESENT!

Living over here with my mom isnt as bad as i thought it would be. Much less stressful than I was at my aunts. My mom isnt as uptight and bitchy. But dont get me wrong... SHE IS BITCHY, just not as much as my aunt. fa sho. My brother keeps me laughing nonstop. He thinks he "does big things" LOLOLOLOL. Hes the whitest black folk ive ever seen. heh.

Ive been babysitting this past month. I will be glad when Daniel GOES HOME. Only 1 more week.

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Well, im out.

<3Courtney

Uh... yeah...

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 01:33:36 GMT

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Story of my life

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 08:03:19 GMT

I should be in bed.
Sleeping.
NOW.

I want to get up fairly early tomorrow.
So i can do that damn hot oil treatment.
then figure out what to do with my hair

Haha.
Tabitha just said "I DONT KNOW! EVERYTHING'S BIGGER IN TEXAS!"
she says the weirdest shit in her sleep.

Jael

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 20:51:47 GMT

Some people are so damn stupid.
I wish I could help her see the truth.
But she can figure it out on her own time

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Please tell me...

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 13:05:11 GMT

I am completely in Shock, I really am.

okay, so, im on music secret because i totally fell in love with it here on lj,
im browsing through the pictures and i come across Brad Andress, the bassist for the band Close to Home.
See i knew he had been suffering from cancer but he is strong.
So i see this picture and im like "hey i know him" auntomatically and i smile because its nice to see secrets about bands you like... am i right or am i right?
then i read the text

" I had a feeling back in the summer he wasn't going to make it, I kept checking his myspace to see how he was. Im not a fan of his band... but i didnt want to be right"

i froze. literally. i froze. i read it over. i read it again. and then again. How did i NOT know he passed away?
usually i keep up with this stuff, i just never seemed to get the message.

When i finally came back to my senses, i went to my myspace and clicked through a couple pages of friends and went to their latest blog written october 6th and it said brad had passed away. Again, HOW DID I NOW KNOW? i new he was sick, i knew he was struggling. there had been several times i would go to his myspace to see how he was, and i even thought about adding him but i never did because you know i didnt think he would have time to talk to me so i thought it was useless. but now i regret it. I went to his myspace, i looked at his pictures. I felt GUILTY. I felt like i should have known sooner, i felt like i really wasnt a fan of his and i truely was, am. But i feel like a lesser fan, a lesser... being because i just found out today...like what? 9 days later. i feel like shit. But i really have no right to be saying that because unlike me, there were people who knew him and were close to him. I never said anything to him but yet i felt like... i knew him. i knew him in a sense that all the other people thats never met knew him. Hes just that type of person. That is rare among people.

I read his comments. people still leave him comment. i cried. I cried at all the comments people left him, people he knew and people he didnt know. People he helped and inspired to stay happy, never take life for granted. he sure didnt. This is the first time i cried like i did since me and shawn broke up. It felt good in a sense though. Brad was an inspiration to so many people and heaven truely gained one of the most amazing and beautiful angels. Hes up there rockin out with his bass having a blast. I dont think ive ever been so touched before in my life. Its really amazing that some people can have such a huge impact on others lives without actually knowing the person. Brad was that type of person. He impacted so many lives without even knowing it, and a lot of people he never knew personally. His story will live on. it will be told, it will be inspiring to many. He will keep on impacting and having good effects on peoples lives for years to come.

Its a shame I never met him i would have loved to because he seemed like a great guy, but i know one day, i will have my chance.

all kinds of randomness

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 05:36:07 GMT

HALOWEEN is coming!!!!

sad but exciting for me.

Kara is lying again!!
why?
i have NO clue.

im being accused of being racist in the WMHS forum!!
LMAO!!

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:28:05 GMT

i am really super pissed right now.
What is karas deal?
why does she have to lie?
so i wrote a blog on myspace about it
just saying i couldnt be her friend anymore
and she comments it
saying all this shit about me
thats not even true.
and shes like pulling out my faults or some shit.
i dont know
i think its bullshit.
she thinks i go to church for her...
wtf?
no joke, that is the funniest thing ive heard.
especially when she told me she went to church
for friends and she even admitted she went for the wrong reason
how fucking stupid.
im sick of it.
i really am.
im sick of her wanting attention all the time
other people even told me shes an attention whore
and its like shes always trying to out do me
and i thought about it and its true.
shes always trying to be better than me
its likea competition with her
and thats not what friendship is about
she shouldnt have to lie about me
to make herself look better.
im through with her
people will eventually realise that she lies
even her ex boyfriend told nick that she lies a lot
and its true.
it only took me a few months to figure it out.
but i will let others figure it out on their own.
my friends always seem to stab me in the back
im lucky i have nikki paige and nick
my 3 best friends.
they will never turn their back on me.
im 100% positive.
i love them with my whole heart
and would take a bullet for them.
but agh.
im pissed about the stuff she wrote me
half of the time she doesnt know what shes talking about
how lamee.

The story of us

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:50:32 GMT

Why the HELL did i let myself trust him again?
am i that fuckin dumb?
i mean, he acted like he wanted to be my friend...
but then he said he didnt want a friendship with me
because he has a girlfriend...
and he knows that if we ever hung out,
we would end up doing stuff,
meaning he would cheat.
but i still find it dumb because
if your thinking about cheating
then your obviously not satisfied with what you have.
you obviously arent in love either,
because then you wouldnt even think of cheating.
ya know what im saying?
And he says he thinks of me
dirty thoughts...
why just think about someone
when you can actually have them?
i just dont get it.
im tired of getting hurt.
its not that i have feelings for him
its just i at least wanted to be friends.
he said things were cool between us,
then why cant we be friends?
what do i do thats so bad for people
to not want to be my friend?
i just dont get it.
i honestly think he doesnt want to be my friend
because he KNOWS he will get feelings for me
that will be twice as strong as last time he had them for me
ya know?
think about it.
if he knows we would end up doing stuff when we are together'
then obviously he feels something for me.
and if he has to fight of temptation of wanting me
then cmon.
he has feelings for me.
he can just try to fight them
they wont go away,
they may disappear but they are still there.
and they will just get harder and harder to fight
thats why we are never going to see each other again
hes afraid of what might happen if he gets around me
because he knows he cant resist me,
hes told me it once before.
it sucks though that i get reated like shit
because he doesnt know how to deal with his feelings.
its not fair,
not fair at all.

Blood and Dirt remind me that im Alive

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 21:34:04 GMT

Last night i got into it big time with one of my "best" friends.
I just dont see how people can lie,
lie about anything, and everything.
I can't lie, its wrong, and i feel horrible,
it causes problems so i don't do it.
I dont see why she would lie about anything.
They are stupid things to lie about.
Except for telling someone something i really didnt care for them to know,
but still WHY DO IT, then LIE??
i have no clue.
it really just pissed me off that this girl who is supposedly my "best" friend lied about things to me when she knows how i feel about lying.
If someone lies about little stuff,
Who knows they could be lying about bigger stuff.
Its just really annoying.
It is going to take time for me to forgive her
because like i have said so many times before,
if you lose my trust just forget it because your never getting it back.
Its so hard for me to trust in the first place
so if you ruin it, its your fault.
This is why i dont like to have too many close friends .
it leads to one let down right after another and im tired of being Let down.

Im tired of putting on a fake Smile
when deep inside,
my heart is Sick.